People do wonder about their weaknesses right, as well I. My first weakness is I am sentimental and impulsive. Second weekness: I have very poor convincing power and when I fail to convince a person about something, I start to get angry, both on self and the person. Once anger starts to build and crosses a threshold, all cause and logic vapor away.
In 99% percent of cases, I am submissive, try to adjust with situation, try to compromise and try to spread goodwill. Still sometimes, it does not work. Years and years of goodwill, and you suddenly come to realize, all the other party thought of was money and money and more money extortion. You adjust with every damn thing and at last you end up being blamed for something that you do not have a clue. Astonishingly, when you try to be upfront about it, they refuse face to face talk. It hurts.
It really hurts for being yelled without any reason. I feel, I am strong and bad enough to face this world. But, some or the other instance shows me how vulnerable I am. Either I am too good for this world or they are too bad for me. Whatever the matter may be, I end up taking kicks to my ass, despite my goodwill. In general, I try very hard to not think badly of anyone. At best, I try not to think of about anything of that person. I just push him/her to my neutral zone that works like a shock absorber for me. There is no point in creating enemies, when it takes years and years to establish a good friendship. Still, today I can't help and my mind is full of disgust and hatred.
