Time and Again

You were there, didn’t you?
When I was born asphyxiated
Struggling hard, me and ma mother
It was your nod that I am alive
As the doc said one minute more
The baby would have died.

Why you let me live?
You knew very well
Where I was heading
Still you let me be, why?

You were still there
In my moments of problem
Watching like a mute spectator
You could have stopped
All those things, and you didn't!

You were still with me
When I fought back to sanity
To a rough dream of mine
Although laughing at my
Utter mad foolishness...

You knew very well
I was all alone trying
Fighting with me and myself
The raging inner battle of mind!

Still you took away the
little bit of comfort I had,
Was it a lot I asked you?
I wanted someone happy
I didn’t wanted to take
away her inner peace and smile.

And you betrayed me
this very time again
You have pushed me
to such an horizon, where
there is no return arched

Still I am smiling at you
knowing the fact that
Time and again you'll cheat me
Why not let it be between
You and me, let all bad happen to me
Please spare her all the trouble.

I know you are the best medicine
Nature ever had with her
Can't you swipe your magic wand?
Just once for her, I request
Let her be at peace, I request
May be with or without me.